Oh Lily!

September 22, 2007

Oh Lily oh Lily…
Bend thy petals oh so gently…
Your elegance astounds me.
Your beauty silences me.
I touch thee with the fear,
the fear of breaking you,
Of loosing you to the dark.
Gently, softly feel thy skin..
As if clouds have reached the Earth…
Your being is celestial.
Your manner is divine.
While thee turn thy head toward the Sun,
Smile through the purity of your heart
Oh Lily oh Lily
Oh how i cherish thee….

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You’ve never loved before…

September 22, 2007

You’ve never loved before,
If you don’t know the feeling of longing.
To long for the person who makes you feel alive…

You’ve never loved before,
If you don’t know the pain of fear,
To imply the slightest chance..
Of loosing the one you love…

You’ve never loved before,
If you can’t understand.
What cannot be understood.
For love is the understanding..
Behind it’s mysterious veil.

When love is Just…
When love is Might…
When love is the fusion of feelings Unite!

Copyright – Pavithri Attanayake

Family

September 22, 2007

Family, they say..
Are the friends which cannot be chosen.
Your blessed or cursed with them…
For the rest of days alive.

No matter how psychotic…
No matter how insane…
No matter that the hate runs through you,
Still your family remains.

Through the good and the bad…
Though the lonely and the sad…
They can be the white light from the sky
Or the lava boiling in the depths.
They steer their ugly heads into matters which do not relate..
Do they understand the word “understand”…
Do they feel the pain you are in..

I feel that nothing is as profound…
Than the being within yourself.
Withing the soul, heart and mind
And everything in between
No matter who you family remains..
Nothing is as swift than the soul that you are!

I wonder….

September 22, 2007

I wonder…
I wonder what life might have been,
If I had taken a different step.
Would i still step the way I do…
First my right, then my left, and then my right again.
Would my life be different if i stepped with the left…

I wonder…
I wonder what I might have been,
If i had taken a different route.
Would i still drive the way I do…
Steering right and then the left and straight on ahead.
Would my life be different If i had driven straight ahead…

I wonder…
I wonder what people would be like,
If i had been a different self.
Would i still love them the way I do…
Would they still be caring, and still be cruel, and not think selfishly.
Would my life be different If I didn’t think that way…

I wonder…
And I wonder…
But have come to concur.
That life as i know it
Is what I always wanted
Be it with the misery, the pain , the heartache…
Be it with the joy, the laughter and the good times.
And what i hold dear within me
Remains the memories of a life..
Which holds no regrets
And thus i wonder no more…
As to what i could have been…
For i am what i am and all i ever wanted to be!

Caress

September 22, 2007

Caress my hand,
As if I am a soothing touch…
Let me guide you through,
The warmth of this life.

Caress my heart,
As if I am a new born babe…
Let me open my eyes,
To a brand new day.

Caress my mind,
As if I am a new power…
Let me guide you through,
The curves of it’s intelligence.

Caress my soul,
As if I was never broken…
Let me open your heart,
To desires through the sky.

CHANGES

September 21, 2007

All alone in a really big cruel world…
Where back stabbers multiply every minute…
the wonders and values of the people…
Little by little going under…
My life is spinning while I stay awake at night…
Nightmares running through my mind…
My dreams are dying…
Crushed by the nightmares…
Crumbling and tearing like walls and paper…
Once as strong as the earth’s center…
Now forgotten like the wind and the weather…
For nightmares are the reminders of my fears…
And through the pain buried deep within me…
Spurs the seeds of torment…
People who once were the closest yesterday…
Now turned the enemies of tomorrow…

hug me and hold me…
please don’t let go…
i’m fading into nothingness…
you are my only hope…
hold my hand a awhile…
tighter than before…
i can’t feel you enough…
to know you are there for sure…
hug me some more…
stronger than before…
i can’t bear to not know…
that you are not here with me anymore…
once you hold and hug me…
please don’t leave me alone…
i need a friend, a best friend…
don’t shun me into a corner…
for i shall miss you…
don’t forget me once you turn away…
i cant bear the thought…
don’t let these tears blind me…
they fall so freely and steadily…
one after another…
forming a river in my heart …
that its drowning my love…
please don’t die…
i can’t bear the thought…
i need you i want you i love you…
i cant bear the thought of loosing you…

LIKE LOVE HATE

September 21, 2007

like love hate ….
what a triangle they form…
only to love after like…
and hate after love…
for the people who liked you…
now love and are loved…
and the people who loved you…
now hate and are hated…
i cannot understand the logic …
i cannot understand the point…
why do we like to love …
and love to hate…
why cant love prevail…
why doesn’t hate fade away…
can i not love you for ever…
can you not love me the same…
were we not the best of friends…
once upon a time long ago…
how come we cannot stand each other now?
now that you wronged me and i wronged you!
can you not understand…
you triggered an atomic bomb…
waiting to explode…
and destroy everything that we created…
how easily does it fall…
watch it crumble and tumble…
into the nothingness that has come to be…
why do we love when we were small…
and hate when we grow up?
i cannot understand life…
for i don’t believe in hate…
like and love are better i say…
hurt never present…
deceit inexistent…
and peace fulfilled!

The Happily Ever After

September 21, 2007

it’s funny how life just goes in an instant…
how fate turns its face and cruelly smiles…
how the worst things happen to the best among us…
the days and nights turn one by one …
but dont change the reality of our lives…
for it we must be strong…
let strength be our survival…
et us survive through our pain and misery…
look deeply into each other’s eyes…
see the best you can see in everyone…
make sure you don’t miss the tiniest detail…
don’t turn away from a smile…
don’t turn away from hug…
don’t turn away from the friends…
who love and cherish every moment spent with each other…
never let anyone you care about…
go one day without the knowledge…
of your innermost feelings…
of the deepest thought you have ever felt…
let them be your forever…
let them be your ever after …
long after the happily fades in the distance…
friends never fade away…
like a burning candle running out of life…
love, care, cherish, adore…
every minute spent near them…
life is a risk taken each day…
never take each coming day for granted…
never take your friends and family for less…
each day ends with a promise of better days…
never turn away from the good in your life…
the better days that already were…
never say no to a new oppurtunity…
no matter how difficult it may seem…
never run and hide…
be strong and look ahead…
see the angels peek through the clouds…
watch the rainbow glow…
hold hands at every chance you get…
let people know they are loved…
let people know they are why you live…
let people know its them your living now…
be there for them …
the same way they were there for you…
never be apart only together…
FOREVER….
EVER AFTER…
LONG AFTER THE HAPPILY FADES IN THE DISTANCE….

cӨΜ3 b@cκ

September 21, 2007

You’re slipping away into a pit …
That’s too far down to see…
Come back! Please don’t leave…
If you need to go, then go!
But do tell me before u go…
For I need to know…
How you are and where you’ll be…
I can’t see the day through these endless dreams…
Where nightmares torment my mind…
Why do you go?
Why don’t you stay?
Can’t you see I need you?
To hold me, my hand, my soul…
Doesn’t this feel real to you?
Why do you shun me?
Am I not yours?
I want to fall into the depths of the ocean …
Through the ridges of your heart…
I can’t take this pain any longer …
Leave, be gone adieu…
Stay awhile before you do…
For the reason my heart aches is you…
Return once you find your meaning …
To the torment in your heart…
Search the world far and wide…
Discover who you truly are inside…
Come back to me once you realise…
I was what u looked for all your life…

МiśNuĐЄŕśtФФĐ

September 21, 2007

Why do I feel misunderstood?
Like my soul has been kidnapped by a stranger …
Why does it feel as if?
I’ve left my soul somewhere dark and cold …
And the only thing left is my body, all flesh and bones…
Why is it always dark and cold?
And no one seems to be around for miles …
I seem to be shrinking into a cave of darkness …
And the only light i find is a tear drop of mine …
Why does my reflection seem dead?
Lifeless and inert, and nothing ever changes…
Am I not your mirror?
Unchanging while you change?
Why do you hide? Why do you scream?
You are me and i am you …
Why do i feel searing heat through me?
Pain has never felt this strong…
Why is the sun so dark?
Time to sleep, time to wake …
Is it a dull sunrise or a bright sunset …
Why am I the opposite of what I was?? Why am I not me?
I understand now why I don’t understand…
How you can see right through me and beyond …
I know why I am misunderstood …
I know why you can see me …
It’s the only reason why I live …
I live through you and me …
Through the desert of nothingness …
Through the abyss of my soul ….
Turning and searching …
Where are you? I say …
You don’t answer my screams …
Can you not hear the me in you…
Looking for your comfort…
I only hunger the warmth of your heart…
The kindness of your soul …
The gentle way you say “It’s alright”
“Don’t you cry, I’m here to stay”
Unshed those tears and feel free…
For I am you….